Everything Changes

This is so unlike me. 

I have officially made the decision to change my major from nursing to science/school health education.

!!!!!!!

Considering that I'm incredibly indecisive and type A to the max, you can imagine how much anxiety all of the uncertainty surrounding this situation is causing me. ALOT OF ANXIETY. Believe me, I never make drastic decisions like this. I tend to put my nose to the grindstone, and follow things through till the end, even when I'm doing something that I hate. I'm not a quitter, but I feel like I am "quitting" nursing and that I have just wasted the past two and half years of my life. I'm really trying to flip this feeling into something positive. "Live and learn, the best teacher is experience, yadayada..." but I still feel like my stomach has relocated to my throat and is causing my breathing rate to quadruple.  

Sorry if just reading this post is making you nervous. I have so many thoughts, doubts and "what ifs" swirling around in my head right now, I just needed to pound them all out on the keyboard. 

I do believe you random inspirational quote from Pinterest. 

Actually, this is so true. It really is. If you don’t love what you are doing, and whom you are doing it with what’s the point?

It has taken me this long to realize that you cannot force yourself to be someone you’re not. You cannot fool yourself into finding real happiness by pursing a false passion. When you decide what it is you really want your life to be – go after it. Life is too short to waste time being unhappy. It’s easy to say that “one day I’ll have this, or I’ll do that,” but achieving what you really want in life takes hard work.

This switch is going to be very hard work (whhhy must the university transfer system be so complicated?!). But I know that it will be completely worth it. You have to ask yourself HOW BADLY DO YOU WANT IT? When you want something desperately, anything is possible through hard work and commitment.

So right now I’m at the starting line. I feel like I’ve just downed a bagel and two carb gels. I’m so ready to run (figuratively and literally) it’s insane! Tomorrow the starting gun goes off. The universities are open and I will be tying up their phone lines all day long!

 

I’m abandoning complicated and adopting SIMPLE. I know what I want and I’m going after it. Period. Wish me luck!